Okay ... I can stop gaining weight now .... ahhhhhh!

I'M BETTER!!!

I've just finished 5 weeks (23 days) of radiation.  The fatigue didn't stick!  I'm doing very well!  .... Always fighting skin burns, but the dr. continues to use the word 'phenomenal' in terms of my skin.  And I'm very thankful to The Lord for my energy, and the lack of real skin problems during radiation.

"Lord ... I acknowledge You as the Giver of All Good Things.  So, Thank you for these really good things in my life."

P.S.  10 more days (2 weeks) of radiation!
P.P.S.  It actually feels s-t-r-a-n-g-e to not complain, or express fear here on this blog site .... but I'll take it!  Yahoo!

PRAY FOR ME?

Yah .. so no one ever complains about radiation.   But I am.  The radiation is making it hard for me to function (fatigue, sore). I so need prayer. Bill read this prayer to me this morning from our favorite book by Beth Moore (called "Praying God's Word"):

Father God, I ask You to lead me when I'm blinded by ways I have not known, along unfamiliar paths please guide me; Lord, turn the darkness into light before me and make the rough places smooth. I pray these are the things You will do; I know You will not forsake me.   (Isaiah 42:16)

When I'm sick I feel forsaken and scared ... but The Word of God tells me that that's a lie I shouldn't believe. Amen.

TODAY I WENT TO CHURCH WITHOUT A SCARF OR WIG!!!!!

I'm very brave and courageous!    It's been 11 weeks since my last chemo. I actually am starting to think that I look better like this than with hair! I'm sure others would differ.   Except my husband of course ... he thinks I'm THE most gorgeous bald woman ever!

Every morning I wake up and greet myself in the mirror "Good Morning, Uncle Fester!"

"A joyful heart is good medicine" .... (someplace in the Bible)

RADIATION FATIGUE!

So last week I wrote how full of energy I was. HAH! Fatigue and disturbing sore-ness have hit with a vengence!!!!! I'm exhausted when I'm lying down!!! Oh my goodness!!!! 15 days of radiation left!!!!

"Help me not to be afraid.  Help me to stand firm.  You, Lord, will fight for me.  Help me only to be still."    Exodus 14:13

I HAVE AN EXEMPLARY 14-YEAR OLD SON

That's all I wanted to say.

PHENOMENAL TWICE

A quick note to say that I'm half-way thru the daily (yes, daily) 33 radiation treatments. Today the nurse used the word 'phenomenal' twice while evaluating my skin. The doctor and nurse want me to bring in the lotion that I've been using (the CTCA naturopath recommended organic coconut oil). And the radiation oncologist said I may be doing so well (skin and lots of energy) because of the supplements I'm taking (all from CTCA). Well, that was encouraging. Who wants to spend gobs of money on supplements that do nothing! And I always wonder if I'm wasting money!

My Petri dish wants the extra location-specific treatments (they call it cone-down) ... thanks for praying. :(  I DO BELIEVE God is in control. I'm on the cusp of whether or not it will be beneficial. I guess it's my age. 50 and up ... the studies say it may not benefit. Below 50 ... the studies say it is a benefit. I'm just over 50. Well. We had a good talk with the doctor at the local hospital here in Cleveland (whom we came to mistrust). We confronted him with some of our concerns in terms of his medical integrity. It all worked out well ... with lots of love, peace and harmony (I grew up in the Hippy era) ... hahaha. I'll be done with radiation at the beginning of October.

Every day I get on that radiation table and keep repeating "I will trust in The Lord". It helps. It's a matter of the will, I guess. My Petri dish loves you.